What Screams Love.....

Just look at some of these pictures from over the weekend. To me they scream LOVE..... Callen loving on his sweet new sister, bebe in awe of her new granddaughter, and great-grandparents in love with a new baby.

Oh the JOYS....

She's Growing

Hard to believe she is 4 weeks old.....her weigh in yesterday she was officially 5 lbs. 12 oz.....keep growing little girl!!!

Where has May gone?

WoW...it is hard to bleieve may has come and once again gone. I must admit May 2009 was a whirlwind it started as a GREAT month (mother's day) and ended as a GREAT month (mommy of 2). But I must admit as bittersweet as it was I am glad to see it go. Because the in between of the month was long, hectic, crazy and scary to say the least. Never did I imagine that my sweet little girl would arrive 7 weeks early and be a May baby. However she came with a bang and gave this mommy quite the scare. In all honesty the olny thing I remember about that morning she was born was praying in my head as they started the c-section "Please come out crying, please let me hear something, please be ok, please watch over her and let her be a strong little figher"...well as you all know someone was listening and ALL my prayers were awnsered. She came out with the strongest little cry a sound I will never forget and as hard as it was not to be able to hold her or kiss her in those following hours I knew she was in good hands. The funny thing is just Sunday one of little missy's nurses said there a pictures of her on the NICU bullentin board with her BIG bows....and let me tell you the little girl was loved it showed as they took adorable pictures of her, would call us about her and they were in all honesty a saving grave over those 8 longs days while she was there. Once home I must admit I was concerned about her brother who as we all know is a BIG momma's boy-- how would he adjust, how would he act towards her, how would he handle mommy notpicking him up and all the changes that we hadnt yet started adjusting him for. Well he AMAZED me and made my heart grow even more. He LOVES his sister, loves to hold her, loves to lay with her head to head in mommy's bed while we all snuggle, he helps change her diaper and ALWAYS ask about my sister or sister Paisley. He is gonna make it and he is an AMAZING big brother. So with Paisley home and my two precious boys and a crazy May 2009 we must say we are glad to see you go!!! June has started off great.....Paisley passed her 1st hearing test however she will have to go to Corpus as she has failed one test---God willing it is due to under-development and that when we get there she passes with flying colors if not I know we will be ok....she will be ok--she is a fighter (the test she has failed is from the nerve to the brian- showing she is reading the information) if the test isnt good then we will go from there. Her breathing will be tested tomorrow as she has given us a few scares but always sees to be able to "catch" her breath back. Also on the first day of June Greg came home....I must tell you he was missed and he is LOVED by all espcially Callen who I think has adopted him for the next 20 + days. In fact last night he wouldnt ride the tractor with his daddy he wanted Greg and this morning you guessed it he sat at the bedroom door till his Greg woke up......oh my sweet silly boy. Now that sweet boy has some other BIG changes coming and I pray he amazes me there. Next Tuesday he starts pre-school.....this will be the first time he has ever been with more then 2 kids and not with our beloved Jane-Jane. Wish him luck because he will need it as he isnt and easy transistioner. Other then that we are praying for some rain that is in dire need, in fact it worries me at time to see the look on Chris's face because it says it all- and more then anything I dont want him to loose what he has worked so hard for and spent countless hours nurturing....please prayer for rain this week. As you can tell things are crazy and busy and fun and I wouldnt change them for the world we are truely blessed, blessed for our family our dear friends and another beautiful day. Take it all in....time flies, things change, unexpected things happen and life is so very uncertain. Sending hugs and kisses and lots of love across the miles...... Chris, Lauren, Callen McKray and Paisley Emersyn

She is headed home...

Our Princess has arrived

It is hard to believe that almost 2 weeks ago my teeny tiny princess joined us in this great big world. As much as I have wanted to slow down and try to remember every second---time has slipped away as I have had much more important visits to the NICU on my mind. Now here I sit in aww of my newest little blessing thinking back to how everything began to unfold Tuesday the 12th.

At about 6:30 that morning Callen awoke and we went to go eat.....I was feeling a bit uncomfortable so I decided that my little man could go play outside for just a bit until I felt better. So outside we headed about 15 minutes into outside I decided it was time for daddy to come home and get little Mr. ready because mommy wasnt feeling right. Once daddy was home they quickly got dressed and headed out to check the watering at the farm. At about 7:30 I just had a gut feeling I needed to go to the doctor I wasnt feeling right and my mommy instinct was setting in. I called my mom and firend and decided I needed to head in to be checked....luckily daddy made it home and we headed to the hospital together. My thoughts terrified my all over 32 weeks 6 days and as much as I thought I wanted her to come early this was no where near my dreams or wishes.....as we called the hospital I began to send prayers up as I knew my body was telling me something....I hoped a prayed the nurses at the hospital would tell me that I wasnt dialated and all was ok....unfortunately that wasnt the case. I arrived at the hospital dialated to a 5 and there was no stopping labor. They quickly gave me a shot for the babies lungs and one to try and slow contractions--all the time all I could think is no please not now, please let her be ok. As they preped me for my c-section I layed there praying that when they delivered her I would at least hear a cry something to let me know she was ok. Before the delivery I met the nurses, the nicu doctor heard all the possible outcomes and somehow some way still felt a little calm over all my fears. As they began the c-section the tears flowed, I prayed, we prayed and our first blessing arrived a baby girl---and she cried the most memorable strong cry I could have asked for. Her daddy got to see her before being taken to the Nicu. I remember asking her scores a 7 & 8....as they stiched me up I prayed for the sweet angel that had just arrived.

About 3 hours into the ordeal I was able to see my precious little girl----she was tiny but a fighter who from the first seconds amazed the NICU staff. We knew we were blessed. The next 8 days she continued to thrive---first she got of the C-PAP machine only 8 hours on it and even when she was on it was regular room air, next day the tube in her mouth for emergencies or to feed was removed after that she went under the lights for a few days, then after that she got off her warmer bed into what they call a regular crib, next she passed her car seat test, then finally the moment we had waited for we roomed in the night with her no wires-no tubes just Chris, me and our precious little girl--the next morning we were released and FINALLY taking home our tiny pink bundle.

THE PRINCESS HAS ARRIVED.....

Welp..she didnt want to be outdone by her older brother so Miss Paisley Emersyn arrived in early fashion at 32 weeks 6 days

She was born Tuesday, May 12th, 2009 at 10:15 am weighing in at a itty bitty 4 lbs 8 oz and was 17 inches long.

We are still awaiting her to come home however she is continuing to do very well and we hope by this time next weekend we are snuggling our precious girl at home. We are truely blessed as we know the outcome could have been much worse however god works in wonderour ways and little Miss is thriving which right now we couldnt ask for more!

Mother's Day

Oh sweet little boy who made me a mommy......I could not thank you more! I sat here this morning thinking that was my last mother's day as a mommy of one and I must say it was a wonderful day spent with you and your daddy. You have taught me so much about myself and just what unconditional love is. There isnt a day or should I say second that goes by that you arent on the forefront of my mind--to be honest I long for the days to be over just so I can get home to you. Your kisses, your hugs, the way you want me to rub lotion on your toes and now your belly, the way you rub my arm while falling asleep, the way you say mommy......I could not imagine my life anyother way. I am blessed to have you in it and am blessed I will be able to turn my blessing of one sweet baby into two in just a few weeks. Thank you sweet one for making me a mommy and thanks for making my Mother's Day such a special day!!!!

Boys....

Oh my boys...this shot was captured a little after the fact that I watched them hold hands and walk to the tractor.....mighty cute!!

My Little Boy

You know I often get asked about my little man and words just cant describe him....however the other night sitting at the little league game I realized he is one BIG lover boy...Yes I know that can sound funny or silly but it is sooooo very true. He is about the biggest sweetheart I know and I only pray it continues when he is 16 years old...lol

At night he rubs my arm, gives me sweet kisses and Paisley too, blows sugars to his daddy and when his daddy is a bit jealous because I am getting the wrapped up in mommy's arms hugs Callen jumps down runs over and gives his daddy some LOVIN just as well. Now dont get me wrong this isnt always the case--he can throw a fit with the best of them, can be very demanding, prefers to spend all his time outside and it a typical little boy. AND lately he is also one DIRTY little boy......we scrub head to toe in the bath and when we are done it is multiple colors (in part thanks to the dreaded bath colors that he LOVES sooooo much). So in honor of my little boy who likes to stay dirty I am attaching some pictures of him running the bases at the ballpark last night!!!

Safari Party Continued....

Safari Party Picture Recap

Are you ready for a SAFARI???

Well needless to say the party DIDN'T go as planned but I am begining to wonder what party ever does. The morning a preperations started off great until Uncle Matt came through the back door asking for clothes for Callen.....when I questioned why he was in need of clothes he told me he had thrown up. Just great I thought to myself as his 2nd birthday party was just hour away. Luckily by party time he was in full swing and we think he had gotten overheated from playing on Granny's new playscape but I guess we will never actually know although we were very cautious and kept him away from the kiddos just in case.

I must say this party was GREAT he had a blast we had a blast and this year was much more laid back then the 1st party......Thank you all for coming and enjoying a special day with Callen!!!